Friday, August 05, 2011

Ramadhan - The Fasting Month.

Hi to all,

First of all, I would like to wish all of the Muslims out there a happy Ramadhan. It's the holiest month in the Islamic calender due to the fact that Muslims are required to fast from the earliest morning until late evening just to show our love towards Allah, God Almighty. I can still recall what my mother said yesterday 'All of the responsibilities done is for us. Only fasting is for Allah'. Meaning activities such as praying, charity and etc. are done to gain blessings from Allah but fasting is done as it is compulsory to do so. The rewards are not yet known but I'm sure it's a lot.

Breaking fast is normally done in the late evening between 7.00pm to 7.30pm. It's called Maghrib as it is actually a call to perform the 4th prayer of the day but in the month of Ramadhan, it is also a call to break the fasting for the day. With that fact, people would normally prepare their meals/dishes prior it. Sometimes, or should I say most of the time, the table would be packed with food and drinks. That's what happen when you can't control your 'wants' rather than your 'needs'.

Later during the night, it is encouraged to perform the Tarawikh prayers at the mosque with fellow Muslims. Each night have different rewards depending on which night does the prayer is perform. You have two options which is either to perform 8 rakaat or 20 rakaat plus 3 rakaat for Witir. Some of my father's friend, including my father, perfrom 8 rakaat during the weekdays and 20 rakaat during the weekends. For me, it's only 8 rakaat throughout the entire month unless I am motivated for some unknown reasons. It has happened before.

To conclude, I would like again wish a Happy Ramadhan to my all of my friends and remember, although it's fasting month, it doesn't mean all of our activities have to stop. Hehhhhh.

Note: Benny Benassi ft. Channing - Come Fly Away (DJ Winn remix)


Monday, July 18, 2011

Jacob's Walk of Life 2011.


Yesterday, 17 July 2011, I went to Shah Alam Botanical Garden to participate in this event called the Jacob's Walk of Life. The purpose of this event is to promote healthy lifestyle among Malaysians. My day started with a phone call to wake me up at around 5.40am. If it was not for that call, I would have dozed off until the evening. I was horrifically tired because of the activities that I did on the previous day. Thank you so much to PFZ for that wake up call. I'm sure you're horrified listening to my voice upon waking up. Took my shower quickly, start the engine and off I go to pick up PFZ and her friend Meera. Promised to arrive at her house at 6.10am but being me, the typical Fais Azlan, I arrived at 6.30am. 20 minutes late.

Quickly rushed to Masjid Shah Alam to meet with Shida and her husband to lead and show the way to the location of the event. I didn't even know that the place existed before I finally able to see it yesterday. A nice place to enjoy the nature's treasures. Basically we (Me and PFZ) walked for roughly about 1 and a half hour enjoying the scenery along the way. The tress were freaking tall. I mean I have to stretch my neck up to see the leaves! And owh, OMG, the hills were very steep! We have to force ourselves up the hill. Not to forget the unbearable heat that made us sweat from top to bottom.

Upon reaching the finished line, we quickly line up to get the goody bags for us and our friends. As usual and expected, I was used as hard labour to carry all of the goody bags and hand them over to everyone :P Damn, it was freaking heavy. PFZ and her friends chit chatted for about half an hour while I went to check my BMI at the event main assembly area. After that, both of us and Meera went to eat before sending them home. Thought my day had ended? No no no. Send my car for washing and head home. Rushed myself to shower and got ready for my friend to pick me up. And off to Wangsa Maju we go. We have a football match with one of my friend's work colleague's team. I feel asleep all the way. We won the match 4-2. It was a tough one but we managed to get the result we wanted. I even scored a goal! Using my head! But sadly it was offside.

Match ended and we all headed home. As Reza was hungry, we hang out for a while at Makbul to quench our thirst and fill up our stomach. Chit chatted and went back home to get some well deserved rest. Overall, it was a fantastic day as I managed to spend time with PFZ and Meera in the morning and my close friends in the evening :) Alhamdulillah.

Tired + Sleepy!

Cristiano Rezaldo

Note: Plain White T's - Rhythm Of Love.


Monday, July 11, 2011



To those back-stabbing people who talked bad behind my back, this is for you:

Ergh You!

Note to self: Control what you can. Ignore those you can't.


Thursday, July 07, 2011

Save yourself from all the lies of the beautiful people!


Be careful of the world out there. Do not trust everyone that you see as pleasant.

A note from me to all the world leaders out there:

1. When there's people out there who barely have enough to eat, where are the beautiful people?
2. When children are left homeless without anyone caring for them, where are the beautiful people?
3. When the world plunges into chaos with hatred, where are the beautiful people?
4. When your own countrymen faces hardship to make a living, where are the beautiful people?
5. When the faith that you strongly believe in is challenged, where are the beautiful people?
6. When poverty are everywhere, where are the beautiful people?
7. When the nature are destroyed to fulfill the greediness of human beings, where are the beautiful people?
8. When children are not given the opportunity to have proper education for their future, where are the beautiful people?
9. When people don't have the necessary access to medical care, where are the beautiful people?
10. When equality are no longer seen as an honorable stance, where are the beautiful people?


"Lies Of The Beautiful People"

Well this ain't no sideshow
This is the great unknown
This is the poison we take

Outside the velvet rope
Standing there all alone
Are the grotesque and ashamed

Well if you think real beauty's on the outside
Well that's a far cry
From the truth

Maybe all the information you received
Well you should not believe
There's no proof

Save yourself from all the lies of the beautiful people
It's time to run from the lies of the beautiful people

I feel so traumatized
Doped up and televised
Life can be cruel and insane

But we've got these ugly scars
On our infected hearts
Maybe it's time for a change

And if you think real beauty's on the outside
Well that's a far cry
From the truth

Maybe all the information you received
Well you should not believe
There's no proof

Save yourself from all the lies of the beautiful people
It's time to run from the lies of the beautiful people

Save yourself from all the lies of the beautiful people
Just run and hide from the lies of the beautiful

Save yourself from all the lies of the beautiful people
It's time to run from the lies of the beautiful people



Wednesday, July 06, 2011

Uncivilized People Should Live In The Jungle

Good morning to all,

Earlier today I got stuck in a massive traffic jam as I was heading to my work place. Although I must admit that my office is quite near to my house but still, if it was not for that stupid jam, I would have reached there on time. I was surprised to see an uncommon scene as I came out into the main road. Rows of cars crawling inch by inch from god knows where. I even saw this woman came out of her car and shouted at a car who was blocking her way. I'm pretty sure she was pissed off that the driver of the other car decided to drove his car into the yellow box resulting in blocking bunch of cars, which includes mine.

Now let's talk about the cause of this traffic jam. It was due to the road blocks held by the police to prevent any rallies from Bersih. A body in which proclaim themselves the liberalization movement to ensure that the elections are held fairly. What? You mean our election process are not fair enough? Give me a break. There are no concrete proof to back up the cause you're fighting for. If it's not fair, tell me how did the opposition won in Selangor, Kedah, Penang, Perak (for a while) and Kelantan? Use your brain, not your fucking asses assholes.

I'm convinced that these people who participates in this Bersih thingy are a bunch of people who don't have anything better to do. There are a lot of activities that I think you people can benefit from like exercising, completing your unfinished work, spend quality time with your family, watch movies with your partner/lover and etc. But I guess you're just a group of uncivilized people who think Malaysia is too peaceful and something need to be done to cause havoc to this brilliant country. Stupid isn't it? Isn't it ridiculous the objective of this rally is to fight for the dream of a certain individual to become the Prime Minister of this country. If you think you want to change the government, show it during the election not on the streets. You're showing bad examples to the younger generations who will lead this country in the future. I think you people should live in the jungle and be friends with all the monkeys there.

In my point of view, politics is shit. There are no truth in politics. But, in order for me to ensure that my loved ones live peacefully and have all the opportunities to find money to live, I will always take part in any election. And yes, I vote for Barisan Nasional (BN). Always have and will always be.

Note: Please appreciate the peacefulness of this country for all of us, Malaysians.


Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Where Them Girls At


Jump please, now!

David Guetta - Where Them Girls At Feat. Flo Rida & Nicki Minaj

Note: Day day day day day day day day day day day day day day day day day day day.


Hapus Aku

My hope is sincere and very much there hoping that you'll see me as I am.

And by the way, I'm sooooo sleepy right now.

This is the proof! Saya tak tahan dah time tue! :D

Note: Nidji - Hapus Aku.


Monday, July 04, 2011


Assalamualaikum and good day,

Back to the usual work days routine. It's Monday and I guess the Monday blues is slowly kicking in. Lazy, dizzy, paperwork, clients, reports, minutes of meetings and meetings/discussions. Well, just have to face it with arms wide open and do it 'ikhlas' to find 'rezeki yang halal'.

By the way, the past two days (last weekend) was the best two days of my entire life.
Thanks to YOU :)

Have a nice day and may Allah bless you with all the greatness in life.

Note: OAG - Slumber.


Friday, July 01, 2011

Yeah Yeah Yeah!

Feel stressed up? Due to work? Or any other bullshit?

Well, here's your saviour!

New Politics - Yeah Yeah Yeah

Now come on! Jump! Jump! Jump! I know you want to!

Note: Work stress level = 250%


Thursday, June 30, 2011

You Could Be My Unintended

One of the songs that used to make me loose my mind.

Muse - Unintended

Note: Memories. The good old days huhhh? :)



Assalamualaikum and good evening,

I'm actually in the office and just finished completing my pending tasks for the day. It's an achievement itself but I can't be too joyful about it yet because there's more of it waiting for me tomorrow. Well, I guess I just have to give my 110% then.

Malaysia 2 - Taiwan (Chinese Taipei) 1

I would like to congratulate our national team for winning the first leg of the preliminary round to qualify for the group stages of the World Cup 2014 qualifiers. Although some people might be skeptical that we can progress into the next stages but I'm convinced with the spirit shown by both the players and management, we're on track and I believe nothing can stop us from reaching the group stage and have a chance of playing with the likes of Japan, South Korea, Iran, Iraq, Australia and etc. The big names of Asian football.

I was quite disappointed that we conceded a goal in the last 10 minutes of the game. If we were able to hold the score of 2-0 until the end of the game, we will have a very good advantage in the returning leg in Taiwan. In my opinion, a brief moment lack of concentration at the back gave the chance for the goal scorer to sneak into our penalty box and slot in their precious away goal. I wonder where's the defender who were suppose to mark him. He ran all the way from the middle of the field. Our opponent now have an away goal in their hand and if they were to beat us, which I hope not, with the score of 1-0 in the second leg, we will be out of the competition because they managed to score in Bukit Jalil. Nevertheless, we should look at the bright side. We still have the advantage and who knows we might even win it on the opponent's ground.

Our wingers were simply brilliant. Hard working, enthusiastic, well positioned and provided crosses that tore the Taiwanese's defenses apart. Kudos to them.

All and all, I'm still proud of our national team. I hope this team can bring back the glorious days of Malaysian football back in the 70s' where we even qualified for the Olympics!

1. Champions of the 2009 SEA Games.
2. Champions of the 2010 Tiger Cup.
3. Qualified for the World Cup 2014? It's not impossible.

Note: Usher - More


Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am.

Joe Brooks - Superman

Ho la da da da

There are no words,
To paint a picture of you girl.
Your eyes and those curves,
Is like your from some other world.
You walking my way,
Oh God is so frustrating.
So why do I disappear,
When you come near,
It makes me feel so small.
Why do I blow my lies,
Most every time,
Like I've got no chance at all.

If I could your superman,
Flying to the stars,
And back again.
Cause every time you touch my hand,
And you feel my powers, running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you, That I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman,
I hope you like me as I am.

No it ain't no lie,
I have to tell you how I feel.
But each time that I try,
It gets a little more unreal.
You say my name,
Oh God I can't stop shaking.
So why do I disappear,
When you come near.
It makes me feel so small.
If I could read your mind,
Girl would I find,
Any trace of me at all.

If I could be your superman,
Flying to the stars,
And back again.
Cause every time you touch my hand,
You feel my powers, running through your veins.
Well I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman,
I hope you like me as I-I am, La la

If I could be your superman,
Flying to the stars,
And back again.
Cause every time you touch my hand,
You feel my powers, running through your veins.
Well I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman-an-an,
I hope you like me as I am.

Note: Defeated.


Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)


Alhamdulillah the result that I got yesterday from the hospital was good. I no longer have the H. Pylori bacteria in my system. But, I have IBS now. The specialists mentioned to me that it's normal for a person to have IBS after an infection. IBS is not a decease or sickness but it's just symptoms that may take time to go away. Some 1, 2 or even 3 months and some even for a year. I hope mine will be in the first category. InsyaAllah. I'm still on medication to control my IBS and it also helps to heal it along the way.

More details:

Note: Ehheeemmm... Teddy Geiger - Confidence (For You I Will)


This Girl.

Hye and Assalamualaikum to all,

Look at me. I'm updating my blog at 12.45am on a freaking Tuesday. I'm working tomorrow but still can't get myself to sleep. Yet again, it's because of the ginger tea I had just now. I wonder why do I keep ordering that stuff even though I know it will cause me massive sleep deficiency the very next day.

Patient is virtue. Ever heard of that phrase before? I'm sure you did. With or without you noticing it. Well, like it or not, it's true. By being patient, we allow ourselves to think and analyze the situation carefully before we decide to say or do anything. If we don't stop and access it for a while, we will in the end regret the decision we've made. That is the very truth and believe me when I say I've experienced it and the regret still hunts me to this day. What I'm trying to convey here is that when you want to say and type about someone or an individual, do think about it carefully. Are you sure the stuff you're saying about him/her are true? Isn't it sad that you don't even give a chance for that person to defend himself/herself? That's why god the Almighty, Allah S.W.T blessed us with brains so that we can think before we do anything.

Even me myself can sometimes be irritated and angry about certain stuff or people but I don't talk/blog about it publicly. Just imagine you're belittling his/her pride for the whole world to see. Now that's not civilized. We're living in a culture where stabbing and talking behind people's back are an act of sin. I have to admit that I am a human too. I do have limits. People usually knows me by my patient and being tolerant towards any accusations or hatred but, like I said earlier, I'm just a normal human being. I'm not an angel, robot or even The Green Lantern. I don't have super powers. I'm prone to deceases. I can get hurt. I have to eat and drink in order to survive. I'm just like you in every single aspects of it. So please please please, don't test my patient. I'm kind but I have my principals.

When I smile to you, it's genuinely from my heart. When I say hi to you, it's genuinely from my heart. When I laugh with you, it's genuinely from heart. When I support you, it's genuinely from heart. Why? Because I know god always reward those who are true to themselves. I'm me and I'm not a hypocrite. I don't judge a book by it's cover. I don't belittle people. I don't talk shit about people unnecessarily. Again, why? Because what goes around comes around. I know if I do that, people will do that to me in the future.

As a conclusion, I would like to remind all of you that people have feelings too. Including me. I'm just a human being. Please be thoughtful before you decide to 'kick' me on my back. But if you decide to go ahead with it, it's ockay. I won't react to it because I know god will do it for me. InsyaAllah.

Have a nice day to all of you.

Note: Laza Morgan - This Girl.


Saturday, June 25, 2011

For An Angel

Hye all,

Actually there's nothing much to blog about today. I've run out of ideas. Even the little ones seem to dried out, leaving me with little inspirations to find the right topic to blog. Since I have very minimal ideas, let's just talk about my day today. Well, I was on leave for the day as I went to fetch my little brother who's back, for good, upon completing his studies in Illinois, United States. Actually my dad went there to attend the convocation ceremony in May 2011. So, apart from my dad, the rest of the family have not seen him for about 2 years now. Welcome back bro.

After that, we all went to my parents second house. Their retirement home which is located somewhere in Nilai. Me and my brother helped around to clean up the house. Physical labour! Cutting the grass, re-organizing the furniture, scrubbing the floor and etc. Just to name a few. It was kind of like an exercise activity for me. If you want to do something good, who would be the perfect candidate? Our parents of course. Although my body is tired from all the lifting and bending downs, for me, it's worth it.

The development that I saw around the area was simply mind-blowing. Kudos to the developer and also the government for doing a very good job in ensuring that the development progress does not stop. This would certainly be a good selling point for the project owner to attract more potential buyers. The amenities available around the area shows the commitment given by the developer to ensure that all of the basic needs of a housing area are met. With the availability of schools, bus stops, mosques, shops, guard houses and etc, they've shown that they mean business.

Note: Paul Van Dyk - For An Angel.


Thursday, June 23, 2011

MxPx - Everything Sucks (When You're Gone)


This song used to be one of my favourite. If I'm not mistaken, it was back in my high school years. Catchy vocals and beats. I can still remember me and my friends jumping up and down listening to this song.

By the way, i'm glad to know that there are in deed kind people out there living among us. The world nowadays lack kindness and it should be one of our major concern. Just imagine what the world would be in the next coming decades. We must put our utmost effort to ensure that the world does not turn into a self-centred dominant world.

And to that teenager, thank you so much for helping that old lady to cross the road earlier today. The world needs more people like you :) And as a fellow human being, I'm proud of you...

Note: Hope you'll agree with the plan.


Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Howie Day - Collide


Suddenly this song struck my mind a while ago. The song that I (we) fell in love with back in 2005. A very special song...

Howie Day - Collide

Memories. Glad that I can see you're happy with your life now. May Allah bless you and your family. InsyaAllah :)

Note: Life goes on :)


Monday, June 20, 2011

A Little More For Little You.

Hi peeps,

Guess what? My breath test result will only be available in a week time. Just in time for my next appointment with Dr. Tan (The specialists who's handling my case). The procedure starts with me exhaling into a tube in which stores the air exhaled. Then, they gave me this sweet lemon like drink for me to consume. I had to wait 10 minutes before the next breath exhaling procedure to take place. Repeat that for 4 times! 10 minutes of intervals each!

To tell you the truth, the drink was horrible. Strange flavour. Dumm!

Note: The Hives - A Little More For Little You.


Sunday, June 19, 2011

The Heart Never Lies.

Hye people,

Nothing much to blog about today. Just:

1. My body feels like shit.

2. My brain is fucked up.

3. My stress level is so damn high that I think my head might explode.

4. Emotionally unstable? Yes.

And owh, I'll be having my breath test tomorrow morning in SDMC to check on my stomach infection. I was diagnosed with H. Pylori infection 2 weeks ago based on the endoscopy (I did colonoscopy too!) result detailed out by the gastroenterology specialists to me and my parents. From the breath test, the doctor will know whether this fucking stupid bacteria has been fully eradicated from my digestive system. If the result comes out negative, Alhamdulillah but if it's positive, another round of medications [(Acid Suppression - Prevacid) + (2 different kinds of antibiotics - Amoxicillin + Klacid) + (IBS Control Medication)] for another 10 days.

Let's hope for the best :)

Note: McFly - The Heart Never Lies


A Day Full of Surprises.

Heyloo people,

It's 1.15am and I'm yet to sleep. Perhaps it's because of the ginger tea I had earlier with my friend at Darussalam Restaurant. My eyes are wide open. No sign of shutting down at all! Ironic isn't it. Even though I know the drink will turn me into an owl, I still consume it. I guess the urge won the battle with the logic in me.

My day started with one of my best friend's wedding in Putrajaya. With whom did I go? That's for me to know and for you not to find out. Sorry for being late as my partner/peneman had some matters to attend to during the wedding. Well, congratulations to Afzar and Eja. May both of you live happily ever after :)

Then, sent my partner/peneman home and straightaway drove back home. My home that is. Immediately change my attire and went for some 'futsal' at the court near my house. Some exercise after eating 'Nasi Briyani' at the wedding earlier.

Here come the surprise. I went to buy some stuff at a store located in Taipan after that and guess what, the cashier asked for my hand phone number! And she wrote her number on the receipt too! Perhhhhh! She wanted to ask for it many times before. It's just that she didn't have the courage to do so. Well, I didn't give it to her.

But wait, there's one more surprise! Apart from herself, she mentioned to me that her work colleague likes me too! Double Perhhhhh!


Crossfade - Cold

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold


Saturday, June 18, 2011

My Sharona.

Good morning people,

I've just woke up and currently waiting to get ready to go to my friend's wedding. I'm still kind of sleepy but I know if I were to hit the sack now, I'll doze off until the evening.

Yesterday I went to watch this movie called 'Super 8' with my friend Zhafri. Some of you might know that my expectations towards alien movies are very high. Unless it has a solid story line, awesome graphics and a realistic combination between real life filming and computer generated scene, I won't give any high ratings to it.

For me the movie kind of boring. I mean a few kids accidentally found themselves in a hunt for an alien? The alien itself looks like a giant squid. Owh come on, you call that realistic? Compare it to movies like Independence Day (The best movie of all time!) and The Day The Earth Stood Still, Super 8 is just a 'new kid on the block' trying to enter a market where high expectations are everywhere. So, as a conclusion, I would give it 1/2 out of 5. Yes, 1/2. Not more, not less.

The only great thing about the movie is at the end. Why? Because the song played during the credits was tremendously brilliant. Classic yet groovy. Enjoy!

The Knacks - My Sharona

Note: Owh my, _______?


Friday, June 17, 2011


Assalamualaikum and good evening peeps,

Just to let you know currently I can't stop myself from listening to this song. I feel like I want to jump up and down each time this song is played. Be it on the radio or on the CD I burned (Which is also in my car).

Let's jump!

Note: Now! I'm going to the movies to watch Super 8 at Summit USJ!


Poprocks & Coke.


Hope you're having a fantastic day today. My day? Well, a lot of work done and there's still more pending! Next week will surely be a havoc week. I have 2 projects that I have to look after and both of these projects involves me dealing with a very tough client. I don't want to mention any name, organization or corporation here but I'm pretty sure if you think hard enough, you'll probably get the answer. One of the pending items is reports. I mean if you were to stack the reports that I have to produce for next week, it'll cover Mount. Everest in a split second! Reports here and reports that. But wait, I'm not done yet. Apart from reports, I also have to re-check all of the test scripts to ensure that it covers all of the installation sites. I'm the Project Manager/Coordinator for the project so it's not a surprise that I have to complete all that. As long as the salary that I earn each and every month is Halal, I'm happy. It doesn't matter if I have to carry 3 stacks of files to the site :)

Tomorrow I will attend one of my best friend's wedding during my high school years in S.M.K Seafiled. It's a fantastic school ockay. 5 years of wonderful memories with all of my friends. The laughter's, the disappointments and not to forget, the fights! Haha. Don't be surprised when I say I did get myself into trouble in my high school years. Only a few due to misunderstanding between friends. I can remember one of the incident, back in 2002, one of friend took his black and pen and wrote the letter L at the back of my school uniform. And to make things worst, I have to attend the weekly assembly after that. Just imagine all of the students can see a big L at the back of my uniform. Angry with my friend, we did get into a scuffle but it was just a minor one. The school nearly called my parents but somehow, the punishment was reduced to only wiping the school's office windows. Fuuuhhhh...

Back to the wedding, I would like to wish my friend all of the happiness in the world. I know you've chose the right partner for you. I hope both of you will bring up a good and cheerful family. Don't forget me ockay. Although I'm not married yet (erks!), I can still visit both of you right? Congratulations and I'll pray that Allah will bless both of you :)

This coming Monday, I will have my breath test procedure to ensure that the stupid motherfucking H. Pylori bacteria are no longer in my system. If they're still there, I guess I will have take second round of the antibiotics and acid reduction medication. Again! Ergh! My stomach still feels like shit! I'm not sure whether it's IBS (Google it up) or the bacteria kicking my stomach. I guess I just have to wait and see. The result will give me the answer that I'm dying to know.

After this I'm planning to play some football (exercise is a must for me) and later at night, watch movie at the cinema with my best buddy Zhafri. Haha. We're not gay ockay. We got each other's back in whatever harms that comes our way! :)

Currently I'm still in the office. Stealing some time to post something on my blog. Well, back to work.

Note: My boss mentioned something to me about my personal life. His advice was 'Make a decision and stick with it!'. Thanks boss. Appreciate it much!


Mind Games.

It's in the middle of the night and I'm yet to fall asleep. I guess that's due to my stomach not fully healed yet. What I can tell you all is that this H. Pylori thing is really a pain in the ass. It ruins your day and you'll be constantly in not a very good mood. Hope it will go away fast. I just want to have my old life back. Football, friends, hang outs, watching football and etc. Well, I'll pray very hard everyday that Allah S.W.T will in the end stop this pain that I have to endure daily.

Let's talk about mind games. What is it about human beings and mind games? I mean can't you just tell it straight to the point? Secrecy, backstabbing, talking behind my back and etc. If you know you're right, then tell it to my face. No need to 'sell' my name and say this and that about me. Owh please, do I care? I just hate mind games. It's like you know it's there but it's intangible, which means you can't see or hold it but you know it's there.

I don't like to be taken round for a roller coaster ride. Make it simple and direct.

Well, I'm off to bed now. Let's hope tomorrow is a better day than today.

Good Night people.


Thursday, June 16, 2011

Set Fire To The Rain.

Appreciate. It's a word that we seldom convey to the people around us in our daily lives. How sad is that. No matter how small their help or assistance may be, they deserved to be appreciated. Especially when they gave all of their energy and effort to accomplish something.

Sometimes I wish people would appreciate me for who I am. When I tried to show and gave my all to ensure that I show how much I care, I really wish I would be appreciated. How can people just chuck me away and stay silent even though I was not the one to blame. I really hope you could at least contact me as a gratitude of my effort. But no, out of nowhere, suddenly you silent yourself from the whole world, including me.

I would like to amend my previous mistakes but in order for me to do so, you got to give me the chance first. Without it, how am I supposed to do that?

Note: Stomach Infection is really painful. I want it heal fast. I can't stand it anymore! :(


Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Hoping An Angel Would Return Back To Me.

Assalamualaikum to all,

It's been ages since I updated my blog. If I'm not mistaken, the last time I post something was about a year ago. Currently I need somewhere that I can pour my heart out and calm myself down.

Let me start with my current condition. I was diagnosed with H. Pylori infection last Wednesday. I'm currently facing one of the hardest time in my life. The specialists mentioned to me that I need to do endoscopy and colonoscopy done. Well, I did both. And to tell you the truth, it was not a pleasant experience. It felt as if somebody was choking you so hard that you can't even breathe. The colonoscopy was the first procedure done and everything was ockay. Later after that, endoscopy, and everything was ockay. But, here comes the bombshell, I have H. Pylori infection. It's painful and it is as if someone is pinching you from inside your stomach.

As of now, I'm on medications for 10 days and my next appointment with the specialist is on the 20/06/2010 to do a breath test to ensure that all of the bacteria are completely out of my system. The result will be tabled out to me by the specialist (Dr. Tan) on the 27/06/2011. My second appointment that is.

Apart from that, I'm also having this buzzing sounds in both of my ears due to some blockage in my nose. I hope it'll go away soon or else I might have to get it checked out. Sometimes I do wonder why do I have to face of this? Maybe I did something very wrong in the past and this is the punishment that I have to endure. All and all, I believe this is a test from Allah the Almighty and I will face it with everything that i got. InsyaAllah, I know Allah will help me and make all of this sickness go away.

My personal life is currently facing some ups and downs. The downs? Don't want to talk about it. Full of disappointments. The ups? The fact that my little brother will be back permanently in Malaysia this 22/06/2011 is one of the best news yet. I misses him so much and nobody knows me more than him and my family. He has completed his studies in Illinois, United States. Congratulations to him for making me and our parents proud.

To everyone, please appreciate each and everyday you're healthy because you'll never know when you will get sick and crumbles down to the ground because of it.

Note: To YOU, this song is for you: Bruno Mars - Count On Me.